Wow. I'm actually done early.

How strange. I'm in photography and I actually finished an assignment early. I did not obsess over making everything perfect. I did not worry about my picture being the best I could do, and being the most creative thing in the class, like I usually would. I mean, I certainly put effort into it, but I didn't strive for exact perfection like I usually would.
I can't decide if that's a good thing or bad thing.
I mean, being a perfectionist with my art and creative things is what caused me to get so stressed in art last trimester. I'd take way longer than I should've, trying to make everything just perfect, trying to make everything the best. I would end up obsessing so much on one step that I'd fall behind and have to rush everything else. We all know that that caused me a ridiculous amount of stress. When I got really sick and had a crazy high fever, I wanted to go to school just for art class, because I thought if I missed a day I'd be screwed and would never get my project done. I cried when my mom made me stay home because I had a fever of 101. So many days I came to school sick specifically for art class, just so I could stay caught up.
At the same time, being a perfectionist was a good thing. It always pushed me to do my best. I truly gave every project my all. It helped me grow as an artist. Before I knew it, I started projecting the exact image in my head into real life, and giving it form. This is something very hard to do. And if I had more time to complete them, I know they would've been something I was truly proud of. My linoleum block and prints would've been amazing had I not felt rushed at the end, carved out the wrong part, and not had time to finish all my prints. My frog pot, despite all my doubts and stress and feeling sure it was going to look awful, would've turned out great if I had not had to rush on the paint job and ended up getting the wrong color paint in the wrong places.
Being early is a weird experience to me. I usually think more and try more and take longer than anyone else. It makes me feel like I did something wrong, even though I know that I like my ad, and people thought it was funny, and I put effort into it. But still, it's weird. I even finished my script for my commercial, which is considered "working ahead". Really I suppose I should be working on my math homework....
But, I'll have time in choir and I only have one problem to do and there is a computer here and not in choir. And no one here can help me on that problem anyway, which is what I need to complete it.... Heh.