There's a switch that gets hit, and it all stops making sense.

A blog about cutting. Because everyone else is doing it.

Definitely, my thoughts are apathetic on cutting. I have nothing to do with it, and it has nothing to do with me.
I don't hate it, or even dislike it. But I obviously don't like it either. Honestly, I always tend to see past the cutting to the emotions behind it. For some reason I can't really see the two as linked.

Also, I can't relate to cutting at all. I can hear the things that people say about it, and I'll understand logically, but I won't understand emotionally. I honestly can't relate at all to cutting. Even when I was at my lowest point, when I was super depressed, cutting never even crossed my mind. Dying crossed my mind; suicide crossed my mind.... I never considered it, but I thought about it. I never even THOUGHT about cutting. And in that way as well, I can't relate to the desire to cut. In my head, I can think, "Yeah, it's like a drug. Once you do it it's hard to stop. It helps people feel like they're in control. People want to do it to help themselves feel better." But emotionally, I cannot understand cutting. I cannot relate to it in the slightest.

Now, that's not to say I judge people who cut. I truly don't. Although I can't emotionally relate to it, my logical brain tells me that it's a very hard thing to go through. My logical brain can understand why people do it. I understand cutting, it's just on a very shallow level. So I would never judge someone for it. Then again, I never judge people for anything, unless they're mean, or they're intentionally hurting others. But still.

When I hear about people cutting, it neither shocks me or causes me to pity them. Really, it barely causes me any concern. People cope with things in different ways. If that is one way to cope, then whatever. It's whatever. Would I do it? No. Should people do it? No, probably not, because it can hurt others. But do I honestly care when people cut? Not really. It's like writing in a journal. It's a way to cope. And as long as you're being safe and sterile about it, it's whatever. Would I frown upon someone for crying? No. Just because it involves bloodletting, suddenly it becomes this awful taboo thing. To me it is the same as crying. In fact, crying tugs my heartsrtings a little more because I can relate to it.
...However, it CAN hurt others around you. And that is the worst part of cutting. The only part that would really make me say "People should not cut". The fact that it hurts other people. Also, the fact that it can end up just causing more emotional problems for the people who do it. If not for that, I honestly would not mind cutting in the slightest. I don't see it as something to feel bad about, or something really awful. But I would not to it myself, simply because I prefer other methods of coping with problems. And because I can't see cutting helping me feel better.

If you cut every night, I would tell you to get help. However, if you cried every night, I would also tell you to get help. Because I don't see the blood and the shame all that. I see that the emotions involved are something you cannot handle on your own, just as emotions where you cry every night are things you can't handle on your own.

And so, those are my views on cutting. Are they cold, callous, and offensive? Probably. But you know... it's whatever.

Ja ne. :]