In this endless race for property and privilege to be won, we must run.

So, I've been thinking a lot lately.

About Dumbledore.
And purity.
And "pure" people. Good people. The heroines of fairy tales; that kind one that everyone roots for; the one that carries the weight of others happily.

The one who doesn't even kiss a guy until it comes to that or some horrible death.

And I dunno, I've been thinking. This may be conceited, but I've been thinking that maybe that's me. The one in your life who is supposed to remain pure of heart. I have intense compassion for all living things; I can't even kill a bug. I make it my mission in life to help others. I listen to other people's problems, and I carry them to the best of my ability. I love everyone until they show me a reason not to love them. I avoid gossip; I speak carefully; I have a strong sense of justice and right and wrong. And of course, as all of you know, I'm more pure in my experiences with (and even my THOUGHTS about) the opposite gender than the usual 12-year-old.

And maybe that's the way it's supposed to stay. The book character with no great hurtle to overcome; no evil stepmother, no poisoned apple. The pure one.

Of course, I know I'm not totally pure. I get angry sometimes, and lose my temper with people. If someone wrongs me or shows me that they're a bad person, I hate them until they give me a reason to forgive them. And instead of happily carrying the pain of others, I carry it bitterly(although I do my best not to show it).
But I think I'm as pure as today's society allows. And that I'm destined to stay that way.
Waiting in vain for my defining moment, or the Prince Charming that will never come.

But you know, I accept it. I've stopped wanting that defining moment. I've gone beyond caring that I probably won't have any high-school, summer romances. This entry wasn't to show that I'm desperately seeking a guy; it wasn't to show that you should pity me, want me to find someone.
It was to show that maybe I won't. Maybe I won't for a long time. And I'm finally okay with it.