How time can move both fast and slow amazes me.

Hullo! So, decidedly, I'm going to have a quote of the entry/question of the entry. Quote at the end, question at the beginning. So, let it commence.

Question: If a person is unable to hide their emotions, do you consider that a character flaw or a redeeming quality? Or something in between?

So I recently finished the manga series Fruits Basket. It's the best manga series ever, and I love it, but the ending made me feel incredibly lonely. It ends, you see, with Tohru (the heroine) and Kyo (her love interest) taking a walk together, as an old man and woman. Before that image, though, it features their young granddaughter coming in the room and talking to her mother, and she says, "They're always together." And then, accompanying the image of the old version of Tohru and Kyo, are the words "Holding hands. Repeating the good and the bad. Do it all, and pile on the years."

And... for some reason... it just made me feel really lonely. And sad. I don't know why it struck me so intensely. But, throughout all 23 volumes until that point, they're teenagers. You know, only a couple years older than me. And then all of the sudden, them being old at the end... having raised a family, had a ton of experiences, growing old... it just struck me really intensely. I think part of the reason is my fear of the future. Knowing them as teenagers, and then them being old at the end. It made me realize that someday I will be like that. That time is fleeting. That before I know it, my life will be over. And it just made me so lonely. I couldn't sleep. All I could think about was that. And even thinking about it now makes me feel uneasy. It's weird.

By the way, Tohru and Kyo should be ranked as one of the greatest couples of all time, right up there with Romeo and Juliet. Seriously.

Also, I would definitely recommend reading Fruits Basket. I know it's a shojo manga, but it has so many amazing themes.... It talks a lot about people's struggle to find their reason for living, why they're on this Earth, and such; it also has a major theme of overcoming your past, no matter how dark it is, and that you can always change yourself for the better no matter what. Like, even though you make mistakes in the past, and there are so many reasons pitted against you why you can't change, that you can. It's even right in the anime theme song: "You can't be born again, although you can change."

It's a shojo manga, but it's so much more than that. It's honestly the best thing I've ever read and I can tell you without a doubt the best thing I ever will read.

...Alright, enough advertising Fruits Basket to one person in a blog. XD

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The days have been so dreary as of late. I feel like fall is creeping up on us. Haha. Another summer come and gone.... Ahh, time is moving so fast.

I have to be honest, though, I'm not dreading school as much as usual. I just have this innate feeling that something good is going to happen in my life this year. I don't know what it is, exactly, I just feel like it'll be something really significant.
...Then again, it might just be summer getting to me. Heh. In the end, I don't want to get my hopes up, because I don't want to be disappointed. (My hopes for what? I'm asking myself. Haha.)

Hmmm, yeah. That's pretty much all I want to say.

Ja, ne.

Quote: The wind is unpleasantly cold, and tells me that winter is coming. But the warmth in my heart is proof that there really is light in there. Proof that, even though it's so small it feels like it will go out with the slightest wind, it is definitely burning.