How time can move both fast and slow amazes me.

Hullo! So, decidedly, I'm going to have a quote of the entry/question of the entry. Quote at the end, question at the beginning. So, let it commence.

Question: If a person is unable to hide their emotions, do you consider that a character flaw or a redeeming quality? Or something in between?

So I recently finished the manga series Fruits Basket. It's the best manga series ever, and I love it, but the ending made me feel incredibly lonely. It ends, you see, with Tohru (the heroine) and Kyo (her love interest) taking a walk together, as an old man and woman. Before that image, though, it features their young granddaughter coming in the room and talking to her mother, and she says, "They're always together." And then, accompanying the image of the old version of Tohru and Kyo, are the words "Holding hands. Repeating the good and the bad. Do it all, and pile on the years."

And... for some reason... it just made me feel really lonely. And sad. I don't know why it struck me so intensely. But, throughout all 23 volumes until that point, they're teenagers. You know, only a couple years older than me. And then all of the sudden, them being old at the end... having raised a family, had a ton of experiences, growing old... it just struck me really intensely. I think part of the reason is my fear of the future. Knowing them as teenagers, and then them being old at the end. It made me realize that someday I will be like that. That time is fleeting. That before I know it, my life will be over. And it just made me so lonely. I couldn't sleep. All I could think about was that. And even thinking about it now makes me feel uneasy. It's weird.

By the way, Tohru and Kyo should be ranked as one of the greatest couples of all time, right up there with Romeo and Juliet. Seriously.

Also, I would definitely recommend reading Fruits Basket. I know it's a shojo manga, but it has so many amazing themes.... It talks a lot about people's struggle to find their reason for living, why they're on this Earth, and such; it also has a major theme of overcoming your past, no matter how dark it is, and that you can always change yourself for the better no matter what. Like, even though you make mistakes in the past, and there are so many reasons pitted against you why you can't change, that you can. It's even right in the anime theme song: "You can't be born again, although you can change."

It's a shojo manga, but it's so much more than that. It's honestly the best thing I've ever read and I can tell you without a doubt the best thing I ever will read.

...Alright, enough advertising Fruits Basket to one person in a blog. XD

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The days have been so dreary as of late. I feel like fall is creeping up on us. Haha. Another summer come and gone.... Ahh, time is moving so fast.

I have to be honest, though, I'm not dreading school as much as usual. I just have this innate feeling that something good is going to happen in my life this year. I don't know what it is, exactly, I just feel like it'll be something really significant.
...Then again, it might just be summer getting to me. Heh. In the end, I don't want to get my hopes up, because I don't want to be disappointed. (My hopes for what? I'm asking myself. Haha.)

Hmmm, yeah. That's pretty much all I want to say.

Ja, ne.

Quote: The wind is unpleasantly cold, and tells me that winter is coming. But the warmth in my heart is proof that there really is light in there. Proof that, even though it's so small it feels like it will go out with the slightest wind, it is definitely burning.

As we take eye for an eye until no one can see, we must stumble blindly forward, repeating history.

Hey!

So, earlier today I was watching The Daily Show, and... I have officially lost my faith in humanity. -.-'
Have you seen the ridiculous town hall meetings? You should be glad if you haven't. What happens at town hall meetings is, a bunch of uninformed, ignorant rednecks come and yell--literally, scream at-- the politicians who come to talk about health care, taxes, etc etc.
And what do they do AFTER they scream at them?
They don't even listen to the reply the politicians give.

Goodness me. Town Halls could actually be helpful, if not for those idiots. XP

And that, as they say, is that.

...The title. The old people in Final Fantasy say that, so I decided to make it the title. No particular reason.
In the future, the titles will probably be quotes or other such things.

Yes, in the future I may discuss my feelings on such topics as religion and politics, etc etc. But mostly it'll just be a record of events. Or, when I'm in a whimsical mood, just rambling about stuff.

Today was quite fun; Emma and I waded in a creek that's probably filthy.... Haha. And we climbed on the roof. And talked, walked, etc. It's... haha. That's my idea of a wonderful time. :]
Big parties are not my style.

So you guys know that my older brother just moved back in from his apartment and brought back with him an adorable kitty. It seems like the type that wants to get along, but the poor thing just keeps getting shot down by Callie.
And then there's Lance, who wants to get along with Kitty, but she's just so frightened of dogs. Haha. Well, hopefully it'll all work out in the end.

Ughh, I do not want to go back to school. XP Still, I suppose it's better than last year. I was dreading starting high school. At least now I know what to expect, and I've already had to deal with having classes with none of my friends, and all the switching, etc. To be honest, every new trimester is kind of like a first day, since you never know who you'll have classes with, what lunch you'll be in, etc. So I've kind of gotten used to it. But still, there's just something about the first day, you know? Seeing everyone when you haven't seen them for three months, getting reaquainted with the school, getting a new locker.... Haha, I forgot about that part. I'll probably have a locker by Joshua again. I'm glad for that; it's nice to have a friend right there. I hope my locker is in the blue hall again. It's the most crowded and ridiculous hall in between classes, but it's what I've gotten accustomed to. I can adapt to change fairly well, but that doesn't mean I like to.

...Hmm. Well, yes. I'm gonna go do something useful with my life like feeding starving children in Africa.
Orrrr, playing neopets. One of the two. XD

Ja, ne!
-Rachel

Uhm... yeah.

Alright, let's just dig right in.

Why did I get a blog? Because it's the cool hip new thing, duh.
No, actually because a couple of my friends have them and I want to be able to comment. Besides that, I do occasionally like to journal, but handwriting things hurts my hands, so I always get too lazy to write anything real in my actual journal.
Haha, I'm disgustingly teenage American....
And that was such a run-on sentence....
XD

I'm not a terribly entertaining person, so I don't expect anyone to read this. Also, I generally prefer living life to writing about it, so updates will probably be few and far between. (I kind of like that phrase....)

As you can tell, I tend to get easily distracted.... Heh.

I'll be starting sophomore year of high school in a few weeks, so that's pretty lame.... Heh, I should probably get on a normal sleep schedule....

Speaking of normal sleep schedules, it's 3:30 am and I have a picnic to wake up for at 11 am, so it's off to bed for me.

Ja, ne.
-Rachel